Tuesday Again

I honestly don't know what to say.

Today was just fraking impossible, and I don't know why. Fall Break was last week and I had such a great time - bike riding and the renisance fair - and felt great, and yesterday was trying but managable, but today was just....

I don't know. Like, I was fine when I got up, and then by classtime I'm just ready to kinda curl up in a ball and sleep forever (but at least I wasn't narcoleptic, and part of it was that the teacher forgot to do his fly and I couldn't think of a way to tell the male teacher to fix that without drawing the whole class's attention and so on, so I just stared really hard at my notebook).... Even work was okay, considering was completley off my game and forgot to bring my laptop to school, and my new boss and I talked about Firefly and Star Wars.

But... While I was waiting for capstone I just felt so terrible. Like I wanted nothing but to curl up in a ball and cry forever. I have no idea where it came from, or what I was even sad about, only that I was. Terribly. Devestatingly. It was... well, strange to say the least. I mean I've been feeling down, but I've never wanted to break down in tears at school before. I see the doctor tomorrow, so it's something to bring up certainly.

The rest of the day wasn't that bad though. I did my middle school teaching thing and that went well, and I caught up on OUAT (which is horrible but King Arthur is one of the best written characters the show has ever seen) and I feel a little better now. Who knows how long that will last. With luck, I'll be able to get soemthing written tonight.
I'm keeping my fingers crossed your doctor will have an idea of what's going on. I just want you to be happy and energetic~ Your new boss sounds cool, at least!
She is cool - and don't worry about me. You have so much going on that worrying about me is the last thing you need.
You have kept me sane more than anything anyone else. Who knows where I'd be without you. Ergo, ily to previously unknown bounds.