Week One

Life has been... something else lately. The new semester has started up, so sorry about dropping off the face of the earth for a while.

I'm taking one physics class for my minor and a whole bunch of computer science classes this semester, but it works out nicely because I don't have any labs and so far the work load looks like it will be balanced. The seminar for my scholarship has been easy for the last week, but it promises to ratchet back up quickly. My group is thinking about building our own crypto currency, so we'll see how that goes.

Life itself has been... IDK. I'm having moments where I want to change everything about myself. Or, if not everything, but  at least become the best version of myself. I've made so many mistakes and I can't help but wonder what would happen if I'd made the right choices even once... I've attempted to solve this through shopping therapy, but not to any great success. Mostly, I just feel like I'm stuck in the mud with the wheels spinning. Like I'm standing still.

I'm just so sick and tired of being alone. I enjoy my life; it so much better than it was even a few months ago, but I want more. More than just evening of bad TV and an ever changing series of books.

Le sigh.
*HUGS* Let me know if there's anything I can do for you bb. It's okay to want more and to not know quite how to get it. You'll figure something out, I'm sure!

I missed you by 4 minutes today :(
(hug) I think I just need to figure out what I want, and then how to get it. Not exactly easy, but what I need to do.