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Ten Days of Fandom: Day 1

January 31st marks my 5 year anniversary for writing fanfic, and I decided this year I wanted to do something special. I'd seen the fandom snowflake challenge going on, so it sort of gave me a leaping off point - but I decided I wanted to do a ten-day celebration of my fandoms, my fics, and and my favorites, culminating in my usually-morose anniversary post on the 31st.

So today we discuss Harry Potter.

Ten Days of Fandom: Day 1

Harry Potter was my very first fandom - unless you want to count my preschool fangirling of TNG. For the longest time, it was my only fandom. It is not one I visit very much anymore, but I have fond memories of it.

I adore the series in so many ways, but I've always been troubled by DH. It always read to me more as a video game plot than a book, and didn't seem dark enough, and the epilogue always bothered me. So, anyway, approximately five years ago when my life utterly sucked in every way imaginable and my original series was at a standstill and I couldn't find a publisher for the books I'd already written, I turned to fan fiction. I sat down and wrote chapter one of what would become STaRT - "Someone To Run To" - in approximately 3 hours and posted it on Fanfiction.net. I remain utterly shocked by how popular it became - garnering 339 reviews, 420 favorites, and a 210 follows on that site alone. I still get the occasional review for the fic, which always makes me happy, because in many ways it is my "magnum fandom opus". The amount of time I spent researching Top 40 songs - down to the week - and plotting out points based on the Leaky Caldron's timeline is not as ridiculous as some of the time I've spent on AJ, but it represents 7 months of madness that I never expected to experience. And I can honestly say that writing it kept me sane during a dark time, provided me with focus, and probably kept me from trying to kill myself.

But, anyway, the story. I was always marginally troubled by Sirius' death and wanted to write a fix-it fic, as none of those I'd read provided a good reason for him not to die in OotP. But then I had a thought: Sirius never would have died in Snape had believed Harry when they were in Umbridge's office - you know, when he was trying to tell him Sirius was in danger after having the vision during his exams. And then I thought why would he do that? And then, if Snape liked him, he would believe him. And then it turned into, why would Snape like Harry? To which the answer was if he didn't look like his father, and the answer to why he wouldn't he look like his father was, if he looked liked his mother... and somehow it became a always-a-girl!Harry/Snape fic that grew to be 277,000 words long retelling the events of GoF thru DH.

It is very bad in parts, I'll admit, but I'm largely proud of it. It is in desperate need of beta-ing, but I largely feel I have closed the door on this fic and this fandom and have thus decided to leave it be. Looking back, you can see my obsession with accuracy and continuity beginning to bloom, along with my vaguely francophile nature, my tendency towards angst, and my love of quotes - particularly those by Eugene O'Neill. Particularly evident is my absolute adoration of his Mourning Becomes Electra trilogy, which I think I am alone in the universe for; and my love for pretentious chapter titles. The chapter where Harry uses the Stone to talk to Dumbledore is almost a direct channel of my own feelings for my sister at the time - and, god, did I particularly hate my sister back then, for her illness and all the trouble she caused, and I think you can count at least four times I had to hospitalize her in the a/n alone.

And, anyway, if anyone is interested in reading an HP fic, you can find "Someone To Run To" on FF.net, AO3, and here on LJ.