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Long Dark Teatime of the Soul

It's been the longest day. A Life, The Universe, and Everything sort of day.




In the end, it was the Sunday afternoons he couldn't cope with, and that terrible listlessness that starts to set in about 2:55, when you know you’ve taken all the baths that you can usefully take that day, that however hard you stare at any given paragraph in the newspaper you will never actually read it, or use the revolutionary new pruning technique it describes, and that as you stare at the clock the hands will move relentlessly on to four o’clock, and you will enter the long dark teatime of the soul.

I tried to get something done this weekend. I really did. But in the end I just couldn't. Don't ask me why. I just couldn't concentrate, not even on fic or the book I'm reading or anything. I have so much I need to do but in the end I just can't bring myself to do it.

This just sucks. I feel so tired and listless and mom is trying to convert me to the Church of Coffee just so I can stay awake and I hate this and I hate everything and I sound like a moody ball of teenage angst but...

The therapist I've been seeing suggest part of my problem is that I have 0 in common with anyone I know IRL, which is understandable, but I just need to get by for a little bit longer before I can get out of the south, but my brain has apparently decided enough is enough.

I can't write. I can't sleep. I can't even concentrate on iZombie, which I've become addicted to in what moments of usefullness I can manage. I know there's no magic cure but I want this to be fixed. I need it to be fixed. I just want to feel something but this soul crushing sadness again and I am just so tired and run out of useful baths to take and cups of tea to drink.

IDk what to do. I just want it to be next weekend already so I don't have to deal with school tomorrow. I just can't deal with people anymore.
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I'm so sorry that things are a struggle for you, bb. I really hope that you wake up one day and just feel better. I'm glad you've at least found a new fandom; I know you've been searching for something to capture your interest for a while.

Let me know if there's anything I can do.
Sadly the iZombie fandom is so small that ive already read everything, but it's a good show.

I hope I feel better too, but I did just get my acceptance letter for grad school, so things are looking up
That small, huh? I'm sorry. With it now on Netflix, hopefully the fandom will grow.

AHHH, congrats on getting accepted ♥ I had no doubt, but it's nice to get confirmation~
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