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Win Or Lose Or Die (drabble 10)

The Ancient!John 'verse: Win Or Lose Or Die (drabble 10 of ????)
Characters: Ancient!John Sheppard, Rodney McKay
Pairings: John/Rodney
Summary: The Empire Strikes Back is the most romantic movie ever made. Kind of.
Series: drabble #10 of ??? in the Ancient!John 'verse. Part of Locality.
Notes: This is vaugely related to the installment I'm working on now, is alluded to in Liberator, and probably messes up my attempt to put the series in chronoligcal order (through links, at least) horribly. (Also, this is 97 days after the First Expedition arrives, way back in S1, shortly before Amici et Amatores.) Also, any comments on the new formating would be helpful, if there are any.




Win Or Lose Or Die

An Ancient!John Drabble


"Because it's better to love whether you win or lose or die. It's better to love and I will love you until I die."

The Airborne Toxic Event "The Graveyard Near The House"



28 October 2004 – Atlantis, Lantea, Pegasus

This is the moment he realizes he's in love:

It's late. Late enough that even Iohannes would normally be in bed, despite the fact that he's taken to spending the better part of the late night hours wandering the halls of the city, running his fingers along her water damaged halls and trying to make sense of this new world he's found himself woken into.

He's not supposed to sleep. He'd spent the better part of the afternoon learning to use the Bantos rods with Teyla until a bad block and an overzealous attack had sent him to the infirmary. According to the Terrans, one shouldn't sleep with a concussion and, while Iohannes doesn't quite understand their logic, he'll put up with it to avoid the guilt trip he'll get otherwise.

Rodney's offered to stay up with him, using it as an excuse to introduce him to more Terran culture. Tonight's selection is Star Wars, something which Rodney claims has been waiting to show him until they could watch the whole series all at once.

He'd liked the first movie well enough – it is nothing spectacular, not compared to the episodes of Star Trek he's already seen – but The Empire Strikes Back is captivating. It's only sheer exhaustion that causes him to fall asleep sometime after the attack on the ice planet, head resting against Rodney's shoulder.

When he wakes, his head is propped up on Rodney's thigh, Rodney's fingers absentmindedly carding through his hair.

In the moments before Leia professes her love to Han on the screen, he's able to think, I want to spend the rest of my life this way, with the sort of certainly only available to the sleep-addled and concussed. It's not until later – much later, after the Empire's fallen and the crowds are cheering – that he realizes the immensity of his realization.

He's in love. Irrevocably. Whole-heartedly. Forever and always. With Doctor Rodney McKay. It doesn't matter that Rodney could never love him back, not in the way Iohannes wants to be loved. It's enough to have him as is, as the best friend he's ever had – as the only thing that makes this strange new existence worth living, - without asking for anything more.

All it all, it's not a bad way to spend the rest of his life.

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Oh man, this is so sweet and I am in love with it to a ridiculous amount. Wow ♥ I love that John has his realization while staying up late watching Star Wars, I love that John falls asleep with his head on Rodney shoulder and wakes to his head on Rodney's thigh, Rodney running his fingers through his hair. it's so sweet and so simple &heart;s
1) That was fast
2) That was really fast
3) I love that you dropped everything to read and comment
4) ILY
5) It is adorable, I know. It had to be Star Wars. It had to be. It is the closest thing to feelings either of them can relate to half the time. It may not be slamming people against walls and whatnot, but each according to their skill and whatnot.
Of course I dropped everything to read your fic <3 ILY TOO BB.

It totally makes sense that it was Star Wars XD I do like the mention of Star Trek, too.
:D Ours is an epic love that will go down in fandom history. :$

As I said, Star Wars is their romance. Star Trek is their go-to show (and most of the romances is that franchise are problem-ridden from the get go). And this is before John's been introduced to Wormhole X-treme...

Indeed it shall :D

I like that you have their shows all mapped out and everything. What their go-to show is and so on - but of course you do, with your epic planning~
Epic. Epic planning. Normandy was planned less well than this series (and I mean that literally; I'm reading this series on WWII and it's amazing anything ever got done, what with what little planning and communication that went on).

I have everything but favorite music I think. And favorite ice cream. Hell, I still have so much of S4 to do... and S5... and then "S6"... and then the "20 years later" fic.... and then "The End"....
I've come a long way. Such a long way. There were times when I thought I'd never finish S2. Or S3. And now... Now i'm mired at the beginning of S4, but it shall be an interesting season, I hope. post-Ascended!John should be an interesting arc. fun to write. IF I CAN WRITE IT.
Awww. Empire may not be the most romantic of movies but IMHO its the best of the series
That is so true. But I think, as far as the boys are concerned, it is a romance. Kind of. Sort of.
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